Thesis Fever

Assalamualaikum Readers!

These last 3 months I don't really have time and mood to write. Don't ask me why. Well, alhamdulillah this is the third week of my LAST semester in my bachelor life. I breath and feel the atmosphere of being REAL SENIOR, since then I whispering to myself, "Bil, your journey doesn't stop with B.Eng". Until now, that unknown voice keep entering my mind. Did I tell you before if I want to be lecturer? Please, don't laugh. The ambition of being lecturer is there, it is really there. But, this is just really rough plan, a very rough plan of mine, if there will be modification in my future plan later on, that will be from Allah, and of course it will be great, because His plans are always great, Allahu Akbar.

FYP, he drives me crazy. Actually, my FYP project is purely case study, it is research based project. So, I have to come to the lab, doing some experiments, get the desired data, and analyze it. I want to start the experiment since last week, in my second week of this semester. But, I couldn't start, since there is one called fiber clever is not working. Supposedly, there are 3 clevers, one of it is being used by PhD student, the other two are not working. So I have to wait until next week. But, my lovely supervisor, he doesn't want us to wait without 'doing nothing' so here we goo, he gave us early submission of draft thesis (chapter 1, 2 and 3) by next week. I was like ^%&^*!! In the mean time, I have to study to write the draft thesis using LaTex, he wanted me to start using it in my draft thesis. In this time as well, I am not really good to take care of my health, I got fever since last two days. So, all in all. The pressure of being last semester student comes, but yes it is too early.

Well, I advice myself to see it positively, maybe later on, during the time of official submission, there won't be many revisions that I have to make. Aaamin, insya Allah.......

Fa inna ma'al usri yusro - So verily, with the hardship, there is relief.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

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Birthday = A Day of Reflection?

Birthdays, always a time for reflection for some people. It will be my birthday tomorrow, May 17. But not for me, I always think this way, if everyday is supposed to be reflection day for everyone. In islamic teaching, they called it as Muhasabah.

Age is just numbers. I really believe on it. Because age is always failed to measure the maturity of someone. Age always failed to reach so-called a successful life. Again, age is always failed in some important matters which people always compare age with those things. Never ever do that. Age is just numbers. There is one great saying regarding this, they say 'Being mature is a choice, but being old is a definite.'

  

I won't think so far to take an example, my elder nephew, Samy. Last January was his 8th birthday. But if you have any opportunity to talk with him, you won't believe if his age is just 8+. He is way much mature than me, I admit it. See the difference?

I prefer to ask myself in this way. Have you done something for other people, Nabila? What things have you reach so far, things that Allah love..? How about your parents, is there anything that make them proud of you, Bila?

Birthday is just another day to get through. To learn how to live your temporary life. Thanks Allah, for giving me a chance in another year ahead. A chance, yes a chance to be better. 

Tomorrow, I am going back insya Allah. I guess, 10 days are enough to boost my spirit up for facing the upcoming semester. My last semester, that is, insya Allah.

Wives and Husbands : An advice

Wives: Your husband may be your best friend but he will never be your girl friend or sister or mother so stop expecting him to care for you that way and know all the right things to say all of the time. You're setting him up to fail and then punishing him when he does.

Husbands: Your wife may be your number one supporter, but that doesn't mean she isn't in need of support herself. Yes, she can do... everything in the speed of lightening but it isn't always as effortless as you perceive it to be. You expect so much from her sometimes that you force her to burn out--whether you know it or not (and chances are you don't).

Let's all stop the miscommunication madness and appreciate what we have before it's taken away from us, God forbid. ~ Hosai Mojaddidi