Life

Alhamdulillah, all praise is due to Allah, peace and blessing be upon His messenger, Muhammad shallallahu alaihi wassalam. A week after training = undescribeable feeling. Well, I couldn't share in this blog what is it about, but surely as time goes and of course by Allah's will, time answers everything though. 

The thing is, I couldn't believe if being old (read : my age is 21 years old) is quite hard, I have to think more than before. In this time, I rarely share my feeling to best friends (including parents), so again as usual Allah always there.

This week, this was the first time during my 4 months in Bali, I went out with 4 High School Friends, we went to our english teacher and went to our school of course. But currently is semester break, so no one is there except some workers for the building renovation. We went to my teacher's house. It was nice, we share the stories during the last 3 years, so you could imagine how nice the conversation we had that time! :)

The rest of my time, I spent in my dad's shop, yea just helping around. There's story, I was alone that time in the shop no one is there except the carpenter, when there was customer came to our shop asking for the price of kitchen set, the material and everything. I couldn't answer properly, it was almost like ^%&%. Luckily one of the carpenter, his name is Tikno, I called him as Pak Tikno he knows a bit of it, he is the furnishing worker, that's why he didn't know much. So it was nice experience. 

Tomorrow, again my lovely mom asked me to accompany her for meeting her best friend in Batu-East Java, but this time Samy join with us, since his school now having semester breaks. At first, I don't want to accompany her since I haven't finished my training report for IndosatM2, the company could ask me anytime for the report, so I just set the dateline for myself which is next week. Could I finish it up during my stay in the most peaceful place in this world? (my grandma's home). 

I am trying to give semangat for myself. Semangat, Bila! :)

24 December 2011, @Sister's bed room - Bali.

Sweetness

Taken from Hijabi Hijab on facebook :

He prayed finished and walked over to his wife.
He sat down with her and took her hands.
He began to read something while he held her fingers.
She asked "what are you doing?"
He answered, "I finished my prayer and got ready to do Tasbih on your hands so we can share the AJR, and inshaAllah we will be together in paradise too."

(^_^) ♥

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Narrated Mu'awiyah al-Qushayri (may Allah be pleased with him):
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Mu'awiyah asked: Apostle of Allah (pleased be upon him), what is the right of the wife of one of us over him?

He (pleased be upon him) replied: That you should give her food when you eat, clothe her when you clothe yourself, do not strike her on the face, do not revile her or separate yourself from her except in the house.
Abu Dawud (Book 11, #2137)

 

 

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Advice for the sisters: If you want a good husband marry someone who has been a good son.

How do you know? Look at how both treat their parents.
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Why? A good son often becomes a good husband and a good daughter often becomes a good wife. If they know how to respect their parents they will most likely treat you with respect.

By AbdulBary Yahya.

 

 

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"A Husband gave this to his wife after they had an arguement over something."

SubhanAllah :') This is the most sweetest and cutest and creative thing to do:) Everyone should be that creative in their marital lives :)

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These quotes and pictures are a piece of the sweetness things on this life. But before it comes too far, do read this quote :

 

p/s : This is the first post during my working time on training, today is the third day of my last week training. Can't wait any longer to finish. Freedom, here I come. :)

Name(s)

Internship is getting bored day by day eventhough it is near its death. Maybe it is because, I am the only trainee in my company this time, while others are permanent staffs. As for now, at this present time this week is the last 3 weeks of my training. Yeay! Freedom is around the corner, guys. Well, but not really bored though, because I had great experience in preparing for setting up the internet connection for Asean Summit 16-20 November 2011, Alhamdulillah eventhough my contribution in that big project is small. To be honest, the one and only subject that related with my training company is communication system which I took last semester but data communication should be the main important subject to be really into this company, unfortunately I haven't taken the data-comm yet, I will take it next semester.

In this post, I would talk about names, most of you surely at some times kinda have strange feeling about something, in this case is curious with the meaning of your name and it ended up with some questions. Then you will try to google for it, ask parents, ask other people until you have various interpretation of your name. Wait, okay  some of you might be think that, this is too much, yes people it happens to me. as well, so no need to worry. (it is me the one who feel worry ;p). It happens many times, indeed. What's the meaning of my name? Why parents give me such that name? Do they expect me to satisfy the meaning? How if I couldn't? How if my existence is out of their expectation? How to tackle this and that, bla...

Here it goes, I was born in Denpasar, Bali - 17 May 1990. Ummi and Abah was wishing and hoping with their cutest and last children of them to be as truly Nabilah, so it does they give me named Nabila. The correct way to spell my name is Nabilah, but when it comes to Indonesia and having words filtration so it becomes Nabila. Well, those names still have the same meaning, insyaAllah. Because it is just the matter of spelling.^^-,


It makes me think recently, with my day-dreaming hobby, later in my future will the meaning of my name become reality. Most of muslim names origin from arabic, like my name - Nabila, it is arabic female name. Nabila means noble, honourable. See? How 'heavy' this name is? Being honourable and noble not only in front of human being, but in front Allah (this is the important one).


I was surfing on google, about honourable and noble, there is difference of being honourable and noble.

"Being Honorable is pretty self explanatory.This is being Honest and true, telling the Truth, doing the right thing even if it means consequences are bad. Being Noble is to lead the Truth to the many. To stand up in what you believe to be honorable and helping to influence others to follow your lead. Being Nobel means sacrifice for the benefit of others with out regret or retreat."

The big question is : Could I become the 'real' Nabila?

Dear Future Husband

"Dear Future Husband.. I don’t want to be your girlfriend. I just want to be the one you call your wife. Your presence will give me happiness. You’ll be my halal prince charming. Riding your horse of Taqwa. Holding onto the Quran in your right hand and the Sunnah in your left. I hear you’re worth the wait, so I'll wa...it Insha’Allah. My heart belongs to no one, I just thought I should let you know. It belongs to Allah & only Him. You’ll have to get lost in Him to find me & even then you’ll still have to rightfully become apart of my heart. Only through Him. What I’m trying to say is that WE have to get lost in Him to find each other. I hope you’re up for the journey. I know I am."

(Taken from Hijabi Hijab's status on facebook)

Dear Future Husband,

Salaamulaykum. It’s Zainab, your future wife. Maybe you’re reading this before we know each other, which would be amazing. Or maybe I’ve shown this to you before we decide to get married.

If I’ve yet to find you, well there are a few things I’m searching for. I hope you’re a good Muslim and the only thing you love more than me is Allah. You also have to keep up with me, I’m always pushing forward. And even when I make mistakes I have that bad habit of not really examining them and chugging forward- so make sure you stop me and make me a little more patient? 

I’m a bit of a nerd. Ok not a ‘bit’. I’m a big nerd. I hope that instead of regular old dates we’ll go to different places and try new things all the time. I’m off beat.

I think I’m just wasting my time here- I’m trying to get to the point. I tend to ramble too. I try to get my point across as direct as possible but I still ramble- like right now.

You can cry in front of me, you can get angry and mad- you can be silly, you can show me your weaknesses. You can make mistakes big or small- but I still love you. And inshAllah you will love me the same. Because love doesn’t just mean acceptance- it means that I will always be there to pick you up, to push you forward. 

I’m not the best person. I get angry easily, and I can be stubborn. I’m insecure and sometimes I lack confidence. But I always strive to be the best. It’s often said that the first man in a woman’s life is her father- and that her husband has to be someone who will measure up to him. That is not the case with me, I love my Dad but I don’t want to marry someone like him at all. You must promise to me that you will pour cool water on my hot temper, that you’ll pay attention, that when we have children you will be involved with their life. You have to pay attention, ok? You have to be there, you can’t be emotionally absent in any way. Please don’t let your anger get the best of you, just- Be there. 

And I’ll be the best wife I can be. Together we’ll be ambitious and hardworking and loving. I’ll take care of you and our children, I’ll always be happy to go to your parents and family. Let’s just try to enjoy life though, that’s all. 

Right now it’s like staring out of a window and staring at the vast expanse of earth, of people all living. And from my vantage point trying to look for you. It’s impossible. Maybe you’re right here already?

Let’s meet one day.

(Taken from Beauty of Islam - Tumblr *with some changes)


P/S : Just love the words of how the writer was trying to express to. Was gigling myself when read those words. Simply LOL-ing myself. :D


Dear Future Husband
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Istikhara Prayer

Are you in a confusion of how two choose between options or maybe among options? Is this good for me or not? Do you need Allah's help to guide for choosing the right one? How to ask Him?

The answer : perform istikhara prayer!

Wait, before come into detail do you know what istikhara means, istikhara means to seek goodness from Allah (Exalted is He), meaning when one intends to do an important task they do istikhara before the task. I tell you, islam is the best religion ever, islam has everything for our needs. Islam has answer for this life, everything. 

Allah will either guide him/her through his heart and thus reveal to him which path to choose, since in reality, He is the Changer of hearts (in relation to the `spiritual Istikhara').

Istikhara can perform in any time, only 2 raka'at. It recommends to recite Al Kafirun after Al-Fatihah at the first rakaat and Al-Ikhlas after Al-Fatihah at the second rakaat. The recommend time is at the middle of night, because that time there is no hijab between Our Lord and us. At night you feel it's just you and Allah alone with no one around you,at the last third of the night Allah comes down to the sky of earth and waits for anyone who wants to ask Him something he needs, or a problem he has,or thank Him for the so many things he gave us.

Talk to your Allah ,He is there and ready to hear , He is the all mighty ,the Hearer,the One who you can relay on.

 

Istikhara du'a : 

'"O Allah, I ask You to show me what is best, through Your knowledge, and I ask You to empower me, through Your power, and I beg You to grant me Your tremendous favor, for You have power, while I am without power, and You have knowledge, while I am without knowledge, and You are the One who knows all things invisible.

Allahumma inni astakhiru-ka bi-'ilmi-ka wa astaqdiru-ka bi-qudrati-ka wa as'alu-ka min fadli-ka 'l-'azim fa-inna-ka taqdiru wa la aqdiru wa ta'lamu wa la a'lamu wa Anta 'Allamu 'l-ghuyub 

O Allah, if You know that this undertaking is in the best interests of my religion, my life in this world, and my life in the Hereafter, and can yield successful results in both the short term and the long term, then make it possible for me and make it easy for me, and then bless me in it.

Allahumma in kunta ta'lamu anna hadha 'l-amra khairun li fi dini wa dunyaya wa akhirati wa 'aqibati amri wa 'ajili-hi wa ajili-h :fa-'qdir-hu li wa yassir-hu li thumma barik li fi-h 

If not, then turn it away from me, and make it easy for me to do well, wherever I may happen to be,  and make me content with Your verdict, O Most Merciful of the merciful.'"

wa illa fa-'srif-hu 'an-ni wa yassir liya 'l-khaira haithu kana ma kuntu wa raddi-ni bi-qada'i-ka ya Arhama 'r-rahimin

:Taken from many sources with some changes:

Nice Quote

Jadilah wanita yang selalu bersyukur ketika senang dan bersabar ketika ditimpa musibah. Jangan bermimpi hidup di alam ideal, yang tidak ada sakit, tidak ada kemiskinan, tidak ada kesedihan, suami tanpa cela dan teman tanpa aib. Lihatlah hal-hal positif dan tutup matamu dari hal-hal negatif. Hendaklah engkau selalu berfikir positif, pemaaf dan berpegang teguh pada Allah. Manusia sangat tidak pantas untuk dijadikan sandaran dan menyerahkan urusan kepada mereka.

"Sesungguhnya mereka tidak akan dapat membuat kamu untuk tidak membutuhkan Allah sedikitpun".

Be a woman who always being grateful in pleased and has patience when the trouble comes. Don't dream to live in an ideal world, which is no pain, no poverty, no sadness, an impeccable husband and friend without scandal. See the positive things and close your eyes from negative things. You should always think positive, forgiving and strongly hold on Allah. Human beings don't deserve to be placed to rely on and to hand over the problems to them.

"Verily they could not make you for not needing Allah even in the slightest amount".
(unknown)

For those who make Allah their primary concern, there is only peace, because whatever happens to them in this life it is good and accepted as the will of Allah. Imagine having only good in your life. That is the state of this type of believer, as the Prophet (sallallahu 'alaihi wassalam) says: “Wondrous are the believer’s affairs. For him there is good in all his affairs, and this is so only for the believer. When something pleasing happens to him, he is grateful, and that is good for him; and when something displeasing happens to him, he is enduring (has sabr), and that is good for him.” [Muslim]

p/s: sorry for the horrible translation ^^

Muallaf

I always love to read or listen the Muallaf's stories. Muallaf is a religion converter (other religion to Islam). Today, as usual I drove all the way from office, but of course with the driver beside me, my mom still hasnt given her permission yet for me to drive alone. It was jam.We talk all the way to home, my driver is a muallaf, he converted from Hindu into Islam, when he was 12 years old! Even that time, his parents were Hindus, so he was the first member of his family who was being a muallaf.  His name is Karim (the name after convert).

How was the way he found this amazing religion? The way His blessing came to him. He was riding bicycle around his house, somewhere in Negara (Negara is one of the region name in Bali), then after a while he heard adzaan. 'Allahuu Akbar, Allahuu Akbar..." The way he told was amazing! Then he tried to find the source of the adzaan by riding the bycycle. Where this sound comes from? From which house?I never heard this kind of sound. What is it for? Finally he reached the 'house', the place where he wanted to know. 

He asked one of the guy at that 'house', "Ini suara apa, Pak? Ada apa di rumah ini? Kenapa ada suara seperti ini? untuk apa?" (What sound is this, Sir? What happen in this house? Why this sound happen? What for?)

The guy laughed, "Dek, ini bukan rumah, ini masjid. Suara yang dimaksud itu adzan, itu panggilan untuk sholat untuk muslim". (Boy, this is not house, this is masjid. The sound that you mean is adzan, islamic call for prayer)

Well, at the other day, he heard the same sound everyday, he was extremely curious, and come to the same 'house', well ya house of Allah. And at the certain moment, he asked so many basic things about islam, and then guy recite the Surat Al-Ikhlas with the translation, the message of that Surat brought him to Islam, then he said Could I convert my religion to Islam? How? That time, he directly convert his religion at the age of 12. With his own curiousity he found the blessing of Allah. Allahu Akbar!

3 years later, his parents got hidayah from Allah. Then follow by other family members, moment by moment. He told me one interesting story about his brother, how he found islam, his brother just converted a month ago, now his family is officially muslim family. For the whole family. He give his brother a challenge, slaughtered a chicken. At that time, his brother is hindus, so when the challenge starts, he slaughtered the chicken just as easy as that, without any recite anything, ya iyalah. And Pak Karim slaughtered the chicken with islamic way, one of it by saying bismillah. Pak Karim told his brother, this chicken is owned by my God, Allah and this chicken will back to Allah. And I believe, truly believe if this chicken is halal to consume and healthy. By Allah's will, his brother's chicken has bad smell and so many insects around it. On the contrary, Pak Karim's one is fresh no insects around it. Days after that, his brother recite syahadah. Subhanallah. And so many other stories, of how others family member of him convert to Islam. Subhanallah!! And his village now, become 'Kampung Islam'!

Say Alhamdulillah, now! Alhamdulillah Ya Rabb. 

Current Life

Hi Readers (Emang ada yang baca tho, bil? :p)

I come back to write after 2 weeks off. I am currently doing my industrial training, well all I can say is, working life is tiring. I am in charge in all division at indosatM2, I help out the marketing, technical and sales. I went for 3G testing in Legian, somewhere near Kuta. Was fun. I ask so many things about the fiber optic installations, radio freuency (wireless) and so on. There are lots that I did in that company, the staffs are crazy, they talk and laugh a lot in the office. I am a typical of having a big difficulties to adapt in a new environment, but as times goes I start to get into it, alhamdulillah. I ask everyday, I dont care if they think that I am annoying, so what? -- Studying is wayy much better than working. Really. Before, I had a dream of working in office, being a career woman. But now, suddenlyy what I have been dreaming of my future is gone, working life is really not me I guess, sit in cubicle. Oh that's not me. :) Now, I change a bit of my plan, instead of working in a office, I want be lecturer while taking my master insyaAllah. But again, we never know His plans, His great plans.

Next wednesday, I am going to Jekardaahh (read : Jakarta) for family gathering thingy, I dont wanna join at first I was thinking of my internship right now, I just working for 2 weeks and suddenly ask about to leave office for 3 days. My mom kept asking me, because no one can accompany her, my sister and my dad can't accompany. She hasnt any brave to travel alone to other city. How come I can say 'no' to my beloved mom? I just simply couldn't.

I am now having 2 books to read and have to finish them by 2 months, because it belongs to my friend. The books are 'Think Dinar' and '2'. 2 is a continuation novel from 5cm, another motivating one. Will post here after I read them.

Keep semangats! :)
Fi Amanillah. Allah is always with you. Always one.
See ya, bloggers!

p/s: Just came back after having dinner at Genteng Biru. I had mie ayam for my dinner. I went there with my sis and samy, I rode motorcycle, after months never ride it, got 'shake' 2 times when I turn left/right. Haha, scary right? my sis and samy were scared. :p

Walk Your Talk

I don't know why, it seems so hard for some people to think before talk. Do you know if to maintain the good relationship among human being is hard? Do you know if this world is only a moment? Do you know if there is eternity life after this? The hereafter. So, beware people!

Lately, many cases around me and alhamdulillah I can take the message behind those cases, and of course I learnt a lot! It hurts, but again like what yasmin mogahed said Life would be a lot easier if you stopped expecting it to be easy.

Fainnamaal 'usri yusro wa innamaal 'usri yusro! :)

p/s : 2 days to go for internship. Semangat! Semangat!

Internship

7 days left, yes my internship is gonna start by next week insyaAllah. Do you know what I feel right now? I feel everything. I feel every feeling that ever exist in this world. Happy, excited, afraid, worried, sad and many mores. It mixed up nicely on me right now. My friends in uniten is starting their first day of the semester. I kinda feel miss  uniten, miss the COE and all the stuffs there. 

I fill my days before my internship start by reading all the stuff that might related to what I might do later on. I still come to my dad's office to help thing that I can help. Tomorrow, I'm going to the company that I will do my internship there, insyaAllah, I just wanna see how is the atmosphere there. So. at least my nervous can be less, by doing that. Oh ya, my company's name is PT IndosatM2, it is under PT Indosat Tbk of course, it is concentrated in multimedia and internet. Things that I'm quite interested on, Alhamdulillah. Eventho some of my friends said that internship is nothing to be afraid, it is nothing when you meet at the end of, you will realized it. But that is a big NO for me, there is thing in nothing. Never take it for granted I will gain knowledge as much as I can. Allah is here, and I always sure that He always make everything is going easy. Fi amanillah! =)

Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Bublé

I'm not surprised, not everything lastsI've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping trackTalk myself in, I talk myself outI get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose itI came up with a million excusesI thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn outYou'll make me work, so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I getI just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give upI guess it's half timing, and the other half's luckWherever you are, whenever it's rightYou'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazingAnd, baby, your love is gonna change meAnd now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn outYou'll make me work, so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I getI just haven't met you yet
They say all's fairIn love and warBut I won't need to fight itWe'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazingAnd being in your life is gonna change meAnd now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn outAnd I'll work to work it outPromise you, kid, I'll give more than I getThan I get, than I get, than I get
Oh, you know it'll all turn outAnd you'll make me work so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you kid to give so much more than I getYeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yetOh, promise you, kidTo give so much more than I get
I said love, love, love, loveLove, love, love, love(I just haven't met you yet)Love, love, love, loveLove, loveI just haven't met you yet

p/s : keep waiting! :)

Heart and Mirror

I love to read all the articles from Yasmin Mogahed, all her writings are simply inspiring. So, this one I quote from her (again) :

The heart is a mirror you see the world through its reflection. If the mirror is dirty, the world will appear dirty. If the mirror is warped, the world will appear similarly warped. The cleaner the mirror, the clearer the reflection. The cleaner the heart, the more clearly and accurately you will see this WORLD.

Great analogy isn't? That's why we always have to think positively (khusnudzon) in our entire life. Thinking negatively that only makes your life is sick. Your life will be miserable, trust me. This life is so short. We never know what happen in next 2 days or even in next 2 mins, so why just fill your heart by dirt? If you want to see this world as clear as you wish. 

There are many of 'heart diseases', one of it that I really hate is stingy (bakhil, kikir, pelit dan teman-teman). Even more if it is about knowledge, why you dont want to share your knowledge? People, don't know you if it is all from Allah, what happen with you by being so stingy with 'Yours'? By Allah's will, Allah can take it so easy from you. I even read an article, if you share your knowledge to others who wants and needs it, it will be keep longer in your mind. Because you keep repeating  it.

p/s : This life is real short. As what Imam Shafie said, this life is but a moment so make it a moment of obedience. I dont know how many of us will succeed in making life, but we (all of us) should try our best and may the mercy of Allah always here, accepting our struggle. Aamin Ya Rabb. Don't lose your hope of Allah.

Weird Me

I deleted two my recent posts. Well, I feel like too much pictures I had shared in this blog. Why not deleted the pictures only then, bil? Yes, and too much weird and non-sense posts.
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Today I went to Universitas Muhammadiyah Malang (UMM) and Universitas Brawijaya (UB), I was doing what they called as 'wisata kampus'. My cousins' daughters who are studying in both universities was telling me that I am not normal, kinda weird, because I asked them to go their campus which the semester hasn't started yet. We were walking around visiting the canteen, masjid, library and most of the places are closed. Yes, because they will start the new sem by next week or next two weeks haha. I was really wanted to ask about master program in UB, but the office was closed because today is friday, and they have a bit longer of lunch time. And then we went to my cousin's shop, we were just chilling there, watching movie and talk. The last but not least place is my aunty's home, my aunty invited us for iftar again, eventhough only few did the fasting but still others who weren't fasting also came (including me).

Us - In front of my cousin's shop

My dad and my sister will going back to Bali tomorrow, my mom and I will follow them on Monday insyaAllah, my mom still has things to settle here, so I just accompany her. Today my feeling was mixed up, don't ask me the reason why. I wish I know also. One of my close friend told me, there are only 3 types of feeling ; happy, sad and angry. Don't try to elaborate them. Or else you will wind up yourself, do I wind up my self right now? As what Rumi wished, "I want a heart which is split, part by part, by the pain of separation from God, so that I might explain my longings and desires to it."

Or maybe I feel too much, I feel things that I am not supposed to feel.

Kangen

Mungkin terdengar aneh ya, baru seminggu lebih di Indo, tapi udah kangen uniten. Kangen dengan belajarnya, nganggurnya, sibuknya, jalan sorenya, dll. Kangen sm temen satu flat. Kangen banget. Paling kerasa waktu bulan puasa kemarin. Bangun sahur, buka puasa, ngaji, tarawih hampir selalu kita lakuin sama-sama. Pusing sama menu buka puasa? Pusing sama-sama. 

Dan baru bakal ketemu mereka tahun depan setelah magangku selesai untuk semester depan. Ah, seandainya doraemon itu nyata. Seandainya pintu ajaib itu nyata. Serius deh, aku ga pernah sekangen ini sama temen. Semoga Allah menjaga mereka. Aaamin

Ngomong tentang seandainya, banyak banget rencana hidupku yang keluar jauh dari apa yang aku rancang, cita-citain. Entah itu terkait kuliah, keluarga, jodoh (lho? yang ini belum kebukti keluar haha) dll. Untuk jodoh, temen-temen satu flatku tau banget lah apa yang aku idam-idamkan haha. Satu hint ya : Germany. Tapi, terkadang aku jadi takut untuk sekedar bermimpi. Tapi bukankah segala sesuatu itu berawal dari mimpi? (ini kok out of topic banget yak, gpp lah ya. :p)

p/s: Post ini totally random abis. Ga penting bin ga jelas. Tapi, apa sih mimpi-mimpimu itu bil?

Lebaraannn!

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar, Laa ila hailallahu wallahu akbar, Allahuakbar Walillailhamd.

Lebaran is an indonesian term for Eid, well malaysian also use. This year, as usual I had chance to celebrate lebaran in my grandma's hometown. My parents are from Malang, East Java. But before married, my dad already worked and stayed in Bali, of course after married he asked my mom to move and stay until now in 'heaven paradise' as people say. Actually i experienced once to celebrate Eid Al-Fitr in Bali, but that was really not nice. Eventho quite many muslims still stay and celebrate there, but still the big family atmosphere was not there. For Eid Al-Hajj we always celebrate in Bali, because in Indonesia Eid Al-Fitr more happening than Eid Al-Hajj.

So ya, the official lebaran's day for my country was today. So many controversions to pick the date for Eid, as usual. I don't really understand for this kind of thing, but what I heard and read because can't see the hilal or the moon, so they have to make the fasting month become exactly 30 days as what our Prophet pbuh told so. Wallahualam. Who are right, who are wrong. Because, in some regions of Jakarta, can see the moon. Maybe they take the majority.

It was so funny, so we all the family sat down in front of TV to wait the official Eid day from government, my mom wished Eid on tuesday, because all the food was ready for it. I helped her to prepare everything, from the cakes, kabuli, ketupat and etc. She was upset. We put all the food in fridge, but because there was large amount of food, so my mom asked her sister to put our food in her fridge too. lol

Out of the controversions and everythings. Night before Eid, we called it as 'Malam Takbiran' or Night of Takbir. Cluster of people was driving around their car or motorcycle or even use the public transport to takbir-an, use our traditional musical instruments such as gendang, angklung and etc. And takbir as loud as possible! The kids, they bought the fireworks and burn them in the yard or in front of the house. Was so fun, alhamdulillah. 

And today also was so fun. But ya, not all our family member was there, some of the girls are married so they celebrate in their husbands' family. If all the family was there, that could be reach until 100 members of my family! and that's only from my mother's side. Before, my family also celebrate in my dad's family first, but my dad's parents passed away that is why since 10 years ago  our first day of Eid celebrate in my mom's family side. As usual also, the old people will give certain amount of money to the young one, non-married one. As chinese said Angpao or as malaysian said, Duit Raya. I got also, yey! But not much like years ago, until now i only got Rp 150,000. HAHA.  Alhamdulillah.. (kayak anak kecil yak :p)

Tomorrow and the next days, as what most muslim do during Eid is, visiting others muslims' houses! Family, relatives and neighbours. The journey of silaturahim will begin tomorrow, I will visit my aunty and uncles from my dad's side.

T_T

Tonight is 29th night of Ramadhan, don't tell me why it goes so fast, because I am here wondering the same too. :'(

Tonight is the night when everyone is crying! Ramadhan meets its ends. :'(

Ya Allah, please if You give me another one year head to meet my ramadhan again. Ya Allah :'(

Ied Al-Fitr is the most happiest moment in every muslim's life. Everything is new. From head to toe. But, here I am wondering the same as you guys wondering, Will our heart is 'new' as well? Does Allah clean the dirt from our heart? They say when Ied Al-Fitr comes, you feel as the new-born baby! Yes, if Allah accepts our fasting, if Allah accepts our pray in ramadhan.

Actually, the one that we always wait and miss is Ramadhan or Ied Al-Fitr?

p/s: I am currently at the place where from all sides of my house is either Masjid or Musholla. Maybe, there are 6 of them. Yes, I am not in Bali.  I am at my grandma's hometown in Malang, East Java. I am happy can interact with my ibu! (yes I called my grandma as Ibu, sounds weird isn't it? I follow how my mom called her). She is getting thinner as usual, eventho her age is nearly 90, but she is still fasting! masyaAllah. Love live Ibu! :)

Last 10 Days

I just came back from tarawih at Masjid Uniten. When I was praying, in the third pray of tarawih to be exact in the second raka'at, I was like about to cry. I don't know the meaning of the surat what was Imam reciting. I don't know arabic, I mean when I read Quran also I have to refer the translation if I want to know the meaning. But recently, I cried even I don't refer to the translation I don't have any idea what makes me cry about I just feel like I have tons of SINS. TONS.

Today is the night of 22 Ramadhan. I am afraid of being of those who has gained nothing from Ramadhan but hunger. I seek refuge from such a Loss.

Please don't go Yaa Ramadhan. :'(

Well, there is tahajud prayer in the masjid as well, I wanna go there since yesterday but no friend to walk with. Ummi won't allow me if I go alone in the middle of night. I force Mai, to go with me tomorrow, insyaAllah. 

Another 2 papers for my final exams on 25th August. Yes, final exams. They are still here, accompany my Ramadhan. May Allah makes everything easy for me! Aaamin. And on the 26th August, I will have my first iftar for this Ramadhan with my family, insyaAllah. :)

p/s: Semangat, bila! yeaa

Smile

Smile to the world, and the world will smile back at you. Smile, whatever condition you face in this harsh life. Someone told (taught) to me, "I am happy with whatever kind of situation Allah give me. If not for the Islam, depression would have killed me a long time ago. So, I submit myself to Allah and when you do that, no depression, no tension, no stress. nothing! :)"

Do you know, if smile is the easiest charity in Islam?

As what our Prophet (pbuh) said,

“Smiling in the face of your brother is charity … and pouring out from your bucket into your brother’s bucket is charity,” [Al-Albani]

Our prophet is always smile, as what Abdullah ibn Haarith, radi Allahu 'anhu, said,

"I have neverseen any one who smiled more than Allah's Messenger." [Jami Tirmidhi]

And Smile. It’s the key that fits the lock of everybody’s heart. Pretty much. :)

Well, but my housemate, her name is Salma, a sudanese girl, she said when I smile, mostly it is a fake, it's not from my heart, she said my eyes do show it. Err, am i? I am a girl with fulllllllll of smile (i guess so).

This cute baby, will teach you how to smile rightly. He is my second nephew, his name is Dafi. People said, that his face looks like me, is it?

Miss you. (My 4th boyfriend)

p/s: So everyone, smile, It’s a charity and it’s free! But make sure you brush your teeth well, ok?

7th days!

Time really flies so fast, subhanallah. Today is the 7th day of Ramadhan, well that means if it only left 9 days to my first paper final exams of my 6th semester. Yes, 6th semester. I feel old. I feel mature. Old = Mature (not!). There is one quote from my friend, said if being mature is a choice, but being old is a definite. True, right?

Even though, I am preparing my final exams, I don't want to take side of ramadhan, of course. who's on earth want to 'throw' the blessing of this month? Me, don't want. Usually, I always go to library for studying, 2 weeks before final exams, but now I prefer to study at my room. My housemate and I decide to remind each other for not easily sleeping. lol That's my only reason why I went to library for studying before. So far, everything seems on the track. My studying, my worship to Allah and my other 'life'. I always wonder, why every month isn't Ramadhan? why Ramadhan always once a year? I feel full of blessing, alhamdulillah. 

Fabiayyi 'aala irobbikuma tukadziban - Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny? (Ar Rahman). This ayat is repeated approximately 31 times in Surat Ar Rahman (if i'm not mistaken). Is there any favours of Him that we can deny? NO!

I am nothing without You. Nothing. Let's grab His blessing. There's a time. There's is a time for our repentance. Allah is rahman. :)

If the door shuts, do not go away. Be patient,even if every possibility seems closed. The friend has secret ways known to no one else. (Rumi)

There are 2 ways to make a decision: By your self, or by God. If the decision is weighing heavy on you, chances are, you are making by your self.

Like a vaccine, it sickens, to make you stronger. The stab is temporary. The freedom, eternal.

(Yasmin Mogahed)

p/s: Final Exams + Ramadhan MODE ON! :)

Time is Running

It feels like just yesterday we did the first tarawih prayer and now we are in 2nd day of Ramadhan already. How fast!  May Allah accepts our fasting and prayer.

Well, out of the title. Have you heard about a guy named David Yerushalmi? Surpsingly, he is the one who is behind Anti-Shariah, not many people know about him, because he is really careful for not to appear on medias. As what I know what shariah means, is the way of muslim to live a life properly which follows what Quran and Sunnah or simply say it is a Islamic law. And the irony of it all is that he's a Hasidic Jew - he has his own 'Shariah' (called halakha) that he firmly believes in and practices. We even don't know if he's the one who is pulling the strings of all dirty work who are done by islamophobic idiots.

-> Go through this link to get an idea who is he

2nd day of fasting, it means 14 days left before my first exam. But, I still have 2 presentation next week. One test this week. One random report (oh, thanks random process, you are success to make my life random). But this is ramadhan! so everything is easy insyaAllah. Allah helps us. I believe in Allah. Yey! :)

p/s: There is famous quote, instead of you saying. Oh Allah, I have problems. You might change into. Oh problems, I have Allah. Allahuakbar! Jangan takut yaa! Big Allah is watching us. May Allah makes everything easy for us. Please save them. My beloved, Allah.

Ramadhannnnnnnnn!

 

Random Post

I have no mood to blog, but I wanna write. Well, today I was feeling unwell, but it is getting better alhamdulillah. There are only two things that yasir told me if you are not in good condition. Drink warm water as much as you can and Sleep. It works, alhamdulillah. Never take medicine easily, if you still can bear with it. 4/5 days left to ramadhan! I miss ummi and abah so much. Yesterday I called her, she was like, 

"Bila, ummi kangen. cepet pulang nak". T___T

I was wishing, praying and wishing, if my parents can transit to Malay instead of Brunei. They wished the same too. But then, can't. They still have to transit there, before travel to Macca for umrah. I really wish. Well, I talked to abah also, he watched my video for my performance during festival seni uniten. He still can't believe, every time I talk to him after he watched, he still like, 

"Bila, beneran itu? kok berani sih nari saman dgn nyanyi? kok bisa? kok PD? itu beneran anak abah kan?" HAHA ohh

Yeah, my parents call me 'Bila', well most my family do. But here, bila means when. haha, so they prefer to call me with full name or else just 'Nab'. But, I prefer people call me 'Bila'. :)

(What I write here just rubbish)

p/s: Ramadan is four-five days away. What have you done to prepare for it? :) Grab the blessing. Once a year and we are so lucky, Allah still let us to face this month. Alhamdulillah

Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan

Everyone starts to count down the days for ramadhan. Marhaban Yaa Ramadhan. Marhaban Ya Syahrul Syiam. I feel so excited for next month, SOO EXCITED. I don't care of how many projects I have. I don't care of how many assignments I have. Quizzes, presentations, lab report, tutorial and final exams. I don't care (sure) for not going back during Ied. I don't care (sure?) will spend my ramadhan without family. Having my brother in Malaysia, but it seems that he isn't here. I am alone (not), Allah is with me. :)

Ummi told me, if no reasons to be afraid, not enough sleep? don't have supply for using the brain? Naah, on the other hand, insyaAllah by Allah's blessing, every single dunya thing is nothing. Some more, He will make it easy for you. Just believe in Allah.

p/s: please don't try to knock, until the right time comes.

July!

Everything is in july.

I have saman dance training. (dance? saman?) Ya! An unpredictable girl who named Nabila is brave enough to go out from her 'normal' zone. I never perform a dance. I don't have any idea how nervous it would be. I don't have any idea how people will look at me. I don't have any idea why I choose this. Well ya, less than a year I will leave this university, so it-is-simple I just want to do the unusual thing of me. This year, I also force my Indonesian friends to open booth during cultural night, I just want to do this before I leave at least. I wanna people see how different Indonesia and Malaysia! Even there is less of Indonesian students here means the work-force also less. But nothing can make our spirit decrease. INDONESIA! I just love Indonesia! I love no matter what happens before or now, no matter what. I don't care. I was born there. I grew up there and I wanna go back to give my contribution. Even it is small.

This week I just helped my club to organize the talk for 'Strategic Thinking of Muhammad Al-Fateh'. It was nice talk, though.

School. I never ever take a side of it. I should prioritize my study here. Yes, I have 2 big projects for this semester, Communication System and Creative Thinking. I enjoy for doing the project of creative thinking, well that's the only subject which I can relax during classes. I have to write a report for Random Process. I have lab test. I have presentation. Assignments. Oh, this semester is really killing me!

I might be busy, but my heart can not lied. I feel no feeling. Now Allah is testing the patience of my family. Everything is in this month. Everything. Allah. :(

Ramadhan is just around the corner, around 15 days left insyaAllah. Prepare everything from now! Your Iman and everything. This blessing month - never ever waste it with unimportant activities. Grab His blessing! :)

He is the one who can heal my heart. :cry:

Fatimah's Story (r.a.)

The story before she got married with Ali r.a. ...

Fatima was 18yrs old, so the men starting coming to her father requesting Fatima in marriage. They all wanted to be related to the Prophet. Abu Bakr, then Umar ibn alKhattab, then Abdul Rahman ibn Auf all came asking for Fatima's hand in marriage, and the Prophet in a nice way turned them back.

The Ansar then started telling Ali why don’t you request Fatima. He said, 'I don’t have much'. They said, ‘But the Prophet loves you’. So he went and sat in front of the Prophet peace be upon him and did not say a word.

The Prophet pbuh said, ‘why are you silent O Ali?’
He did not say anything.
The Prophet pbuh said, ‘maybe you came to ask for Fatima's hand in marriage?’
He said, ‘yes that’s it, that’s it’.
The Prophet pbuh said ‘do you have anything to marry her with?’ He said, ‘no O messenger of Allah’.
The Prophet pbuh said, ‘do you not have a dir3 (shield) that I gave you once?'
He said ‘yes, but its not worth more than 250 Dirham.'
The Prophet pbuh, ‘I will let you marry her with it’.

He brought the dir3 to the Prophet, and the Prophet pbuh sold it for him and came with 250 dirham, and so he gave a portion of it to Bilal and said, ‘O Bilal, buy with this some perfume for Fatima’ and he gave the rest of the money to Ummu Salama and said, ‘buy for Fatima the clothes and necessities of a bride’. See how the Prophet pbuh is dealing with this, his daughter is going to be a wife.

Ali came after a day or two and said, “O Messenger of Allah, I paid the mahr, so when am I going to marry Fatima?” (he was embarrassed).

The Prophet peace be upon him replied, ‘today if you want’.
He said, ‘yes, O Messenger of Allah’.

So they invited the people and slaughtered an animal. The Prophet pbuh said, “if a person comes to you of whom you are satisfied with his deen and his character then get him married, if you do not there will be fitnah on the earth and great fasaad (evil)’.

This is in our time now. Fatima was riding on a camel, and Uthman was directing it. And the sahaba had their swords raised up as a form of celebration. And the women were surrounding Fatima, and some anasheed were being sung. Afterwards, Ali and Fatima entered their simple house which was further out from the Madina (not in the city center) because that was all Ali could afford.

As they were about to enter the Prophet said, ‘O Ali don’t get up to anything (don’t get close to her) until I come to you’.
Ali says, ‘so I sat on one side of the house and Fatima sat on the other side’.

The Prophet came and placed his hand on her hand, and he began to make du’a, he said,
‘O Allah, Fatima is a piece of me, O Allah Fatima is beloved to my heart, O Allah Ali is my brother and the most beloved to me, O Allah give them Baraka (an increase in all that is good) and place on them baraka and unite them on good, O Ali place your hand on Fatima’s head and say, ‘O Allah I ask you for the good in her, and for the good that she was created for, and I seek refuge in you from her evil, and the evil that she was created for, O Ali, may Allah place baraka among you’

(Taken from islamway.org)

I do really wanna have a love story like Fatimah’s, Rasulullah’s daughter.

Do you know if Fatimah has loved Ali before they got married?

But she never showed it to Ali until Allah united them together into a marriage bond.

Maybe only Allah who knows her feeling.

Betapa Fatimah pintar menjaga perasaannya dan bersabar menjaga harga dirinya sebagai seorang wanita. Betapa Fatimah begitu percaya akan takdir Tuhan tanpa harus gundah akan rasa cintanya pada Ali. Dan betapa Allah berbaik hati memberikan Fatimah rasa cinta kepada orang yang tepat, orang yang memang Dia takdirkan menjalani separuh agama bersamanya. 

(Taken from my friend's blog)

Don't Lose Hope in The Mercy of Allah (38:53)

Don't put question mark when Allah puts a full stop. (anonymous)

We always ask why our du'a never answered? Somehow, you are doubting your du'a. Allah gives you mercy, Allah gives you hopes.

...and do not lose hope in the mercy of Allah; indeed none lose hope in the mercy of Allah except the disbelieving people." - [Yusuf 12:87]

So, in which category are you? Now, I'm in a bit doubtful. I have so many things to decide. If I don't seek His help, who else I can ask for? No one! except Him. Only Allah in my heart. He knows everything I need. Maybe, He won't give what are things you want, but He will give things you need.

Indo-Uniten Gathering with Seniors!

On saturday, we had small Indo-Uniten Students Gathering. There is one of our seniors came to Malaysia, she finished her master in Sweden and not sure for now, I think she got job there as well. She took Electronics and Communication too before. She were in the same batch with my brother.

My brother, Yasir Khalid. I really love him, but he never know how much I love him (yieaiuiiuaiuia).

My handsome brother - Yasir

Kak Rima, Me and Kak Rika

Kak rima studied mechanical engineering before, and now she is working in Germanischer Lloyd GLM Sdn Bhd in Kuala Lumpur. I think it is one of big Oil&Gas Company in Malaysia. And Kak rika, she is the one who I mentioned above.

Hope for the Hopeless

Well ya. That's what I feel for Indonesia's conditions lately. One of Indonesia's labor in Saudi Arabia got Qisas Law. Yes. She is died in Saudi around 2 weeks ago. I don't really know the problem why she got that execution. Ruyati binti Satubi. What I read in Jakarta Post, Indonesia 'feels cheated' by Saudi Government. They just carried the execution without letting Indonesia government in advance. (I'm not really sure for this fact). I know only a bit, if Ruyati often abused by her employer, did not receive her salary and her request to return home was denied.

I quoted from a law expert from Universiti of Indonesia,

“In qisas [the principle of ‘an eye for an eye’], someone who commits murder must be sentenced to death. But that applies only when that person does it with ill intention, [which was not the case with Ruyati],” he told The Jakarta Post. “No Indonesian migrant worker who comes to Saudi Arabia has bad intentions, or intends to kill someone there."

We must withdraw all our migrant workers there until we have a proper protection system for them, said from one of social activist. (What The???!!) Are you sure? Are you letting almost a million people who counts as workers in Saudi missing their job? Do you have large field work to promise them jobs? How about their families? Do you know if this is the biggest income for Indonesia?

That's what I thought when I heard the news, but then it makes me re think again, and i think that's good or even the best. Stop It. Stop to send our workers to work oversea let say, Saudi and Malaysia. We are kinda tired. Those rich countries indirectly do 'occupation' to us. We are independence country, are we? They always make us a shameful. And, I don't like Saudi's government for the first place. I don't like some of Saudi's people, when they come to Indonesia, they just WRECK image of Islam. They come and do what they aren't supposed to do. Some more, because of this case. Some people said bad things for Qisas law. There's nothing wrong for this law. There is one nice quote,

Never ever judge Islam by its follower, but judge Islam by its teaching.

Saudi should know if we are A COUNTRY too that has DIGNITY. Yes, dignity. We are poor, yes YOU are rich country. But can't prove it by this way!

But, we can't see from only one side. Indonesia has to fix their government too. They should take care MORE to the people who work, study or live outside Indonesia. And yes, I read news today, said if Saudi stop to receive the labors from Indonesia. Great! another problem comes again, to our country. Loads of unemployment people will be hugely increase. FYI, there is more than 6 millions Indonesian workers who work oversea and mostly are women.
  
And what i feel extremely sad is, there is list of 25 people who sentenced to death in Saudi Arabia and several other cases. Ya Rabb! Is there any hope for a better Indonesia?

Allah Ma'ak!

In Islam, there are 2 types of relations : Habluminannas and Habluminallah. For me, Habluminallah is easier than Habluminannas, why I could said so? Because Allah is rahman, Allah is rahim. We do bad things, and we seek Allah for the taubat, insyaAllah He will answer our taubat. But how about Habluminannas? This is hard for me, how we have to behave rightly to people. If you want others respect you try to respect others. We never know what's inside someone's heart. Only Allah knows. This makes me remind of nice quote from Yasmin Mogahed, 

When you beg of people, they hate you for it. When you beg of Allah, He loves you.

This is obvious right? Allah loves when we always beg du'a to Him. I know, sometimes you would feel. 'Ahh, I always make du'a to Allah but none of my du'a being answered.' You are wrong. Totally wrong. He always hear our du'a. He will answer in His ways. Sometimes, He will answer you directly like whatever you want, or else He will answer your du'a in other way of course that's the best way. His plans are always better than us. Of course! 

So, never hesitated to recite du'a, to seek His help. He is there, whenever you need Him. You can't depend on people. Because people may come and go. But Allah? He never ever leave us alone. Never feel alone.

La Tahzan, innallaha ma'ana.