Lebaraannn!

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar, Laa ila hailallahu wallahu akbar, Allahuakbar Walillailhamd.

Lebaran is an indonesian term for Eid, well malaysian also use. This year, as usual I had chance to celebrate lebaran in my grandma's hometown. My parents are from Malang, East Java. But before married, my dad already worked and stayed in Bali, of course after married he asked my mom to move and stay until now in 'heaven paradise' as people say. Actually i experienced once to celebrate Eid Al-Fitr in Bali, but that was really not nice. Eventho quite many muslims still stay and celebrate there, but still the big family atmosphere was not there. For Eid Al-Hajj we always celebrate in Bali, because in Indonesia Eid Al-Fitr more happening than Eid Al-Hajj.

So ya, the official lebaran's day for my country was today. So many controversions to pick the date for Eid, as usual. I don't really understand for this kind of thing, but what I heard and read because can't see the hilal or the moon, so they have to make the fasting month become exactly 30 days as what our Prophet pbuh told so. Wallahualam. Who are right, who are wrong. Because, in some regions of Jakarta, can see the moon. Maybe they take the majority.

It was so funny, so we all the family sat down in front of TV to wait the official Eid day from government, my mom wished Eid on tuesday, because all the food was ready for it. I helped her to prepare everything, from the cakes, kabuli, ketupat and etc. She was upset. We put all the food in fridge, but because there was large amount of food, so my mom asked her sister to put our food in her fridge too. lol

Out of the controversions and everythings. Night before Eid, we called it as 'Malam Takbiran' or Night of Takbir. Cluster of people was driving around their car or motorcycle or even use the public transport to takbir-an, use our traditional musical instruments such as gendang, angklung and etc. And takbir as loud as possible! The kids, they bought the fireworks and burn them in the yard or in front of the house. Was so fun, alhamdulillah. 

And today also was so fun. But ya, not all our family member was there, some of the girls are married so they celebrate in their husbands' family. If all the family was there, that could be reach until 100 members of my family! and that's only from my mother's side. Before, my family also celebrate in my dad's family first, but my dad's parents passed away that is why since 10 years ago  our first day of Eid celebrate in my mom's family side. As usual also, the old people will give certain amount of money to the young one, non-married one. As chinese said Angpao or as malaysian said, Duit Raya. I got also, yey! But not much like years ago, until now i only got Rp 150,000. HAHA.  Alhamdulillah.. (kayak anak kecil yak :p)

Tomorrow and the next days, as what most muslim do during Eid is, visiting others muslims' houses! Family, relatives and neighbours. The journey of silaturahim will begin tomorrow, I will visit my aunty and uncles from my dad's side.

T_T

Tonight is 29th night of Ramadhan, don't tell me why it goes so fast, because I am here wondering the same too. :'(

Tonight is the night when everyone is crying! Ramadhan meets its ends. :'(

Ya Allah, please if You give me another one year head to meet my ramadhan again. Ya Allah :'(

Ied Al-Fitr is the most happiest moment in every muslim's life. Everything is new. From head to toe. But, here I am wondering the same as you guys wondering, Will our heart is 'new' as well? Does Allah clean the dirt from our heart? They say when Ied Al-Fitr comes, you feel as the new-born baby! Yes, if Allah accepts our fasting, if Allah accepts our pray in ramadhan.

Actually, the one that we always wait and miss is Ramadhan or Ied Al-Fitr?

p/s: I am currently at the place where from all sides of my house is either Masjid or Musholla. Maybe, there are 6 of them. Yes, I am not in Bali.  I am at my grandma's hometown in Malang, East Java. I am happy can interact with my ibu! (yes I called my grandma as Ibu, sounds weird isn't it? I follow how my mom called her). She is getting thinner as usual, eventho her age is nearly 90, but she is still fasting! masyaAllah. Love live Ibu! :)

Last 10 Days

I just came back from tarawih at Masjid Uniten. When I was praying, in the third pray of tarawih to be exact in the second raka'at, I was like about to cry. I don't know the meaning of the surat what was Imam reciting. I don't know arabic, I mean when I read Quran also I have to refer the translation if I want to know the meaning. But recently, I cried even I don't refer to the translation I don't have any idea what makes me cry about I just feel like I have tons of SINS. TONS.

Today is the night of 22 Ramadhan. I am afraid of being of those who has gained nothing from Ramadhan but hunger. I seek refuge from such a Loss.

Please don't go Yaa Ramadhan. :'(

Well, there is tahajud prayer in the masjid as well, I wanna go there since yesterday but no friend to walk with. Ummi won't allow me if I go alone in the middle of night. I force Mai, to go with me tomorrow, insyaAllah. 

Another 2 papers for my final exams on 25th August. Yes, final exams. They are still here, accompany my Ramadhan. May Allah makes everything easy for me! Aaamin. And on the 26th August, I will have my first iftar for this Ramadhan with my family, insyaAllah. :)

p/s: Semangat, bila! yeaa

Smile

Smile to the world, and the world will smile back at you. Smile, whatever condition you face in this harsh life. Someone told (taught) to me, "I am happy with whatever kind of situation Allah give me. If not for the Islam, depression would have killed me a long time ago. So, I submit myself to Allah and when you do that, no depression, no tension, no stress. nothing! :)"

Do you know, if smile is the easiest charity in Islam?

As what our Prophet (pbuh) said,

“Smiling in the face of your brother is charity … and pouring out from your bucket into your brother’s bucket is charity,” [Al-Albani]

Our prophet is always smile, as what Abdullah ibn Haarith, radi Allahu 'anhu, said,

"I have neverseen any one who smiled more than Allah's Messenger." [Jami Tirmidhi]

And Smile. It’s the key that fits the lock of everybody’s heart. Pretty much. :)

Well, but my housemate, her name is Salma, a sudanese girl, she said when I smile, mostly it is a fake, it's not from my heart, she said my eyes do show it. Err, am i? I am a girl with fulllllllll of smile (i guess so).

This cute baby, will teach you how to smile rightly. He is my second nephew, his name is Dafi. People said, that his face looks like me, is it?

Miss you. (My 4th boyfriend)

p/s: So everyone, smile, It’s a charity and it’s free! But make sure you brush your teeth well, ok?

7th days!

Time really flies so fast, subhanallah. Today is the 7th day of Ramadhan, well that means if it only left 9 days to my first paper final exams of my 6th semester. Yes, 6th semester. I feel old. I feel mature. Old = Mature (not!). There is one quote from my friend, said if being mature is a choice, but being old is a definite. True, right?

Even though, I am preparing my final exams, I don't want to take side of ramadhan, of course. who's on earth want to 'throw' the blessing of this month? Me, don't want. Usually, I always go to library for studying, 2 weeks before final exams, but now I prefer to study at my room. My housemate and I decide to remind each other for not easily sleeping. lol That's my only reason why I went to library for studying before. So far, everything seems on the track. My studying, my worship to Allah and my other 'life'. I always wonder, why every month isn't Ramadhan? why Ramadhan always once a year? I feel full of blessing, alhamdulillah. 

Fabiayyi 'aala irobbikuma tukadziban - Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny? (Ar Rahman). This ayat is repeated approximately 31 times in Surat Ar Rahman (if i'm not mistaken). Is there any favours of Him that we can deny? NO!

I am nothing without You. Nothing. Let's grab His blessing. There's a time. There's is a time for our repentance. Allah is rahman. :)

If the door shuts, do not go away. Be patient,even if every possibility seems closed. The friend has secret ways known to no one else. (Rumi)

There are 2 ways to make a decision: By your self, or by God. If the decision is weighing heavy on you, chances are, you are making by your self.

Like a vaccine, it sickens, to make you stronger. The stab is temporary. The freedom, eternal.

(Yasmin Mogahed)

p/s: Final Exams + Ramadhan MODE ON! :)

Time is Running

It feels like just yesterday we did the first tarawih prayer and now we are in 2nd day of Ramadhan already. How fast!  May Allah accepts our fasting and prayer.

Well, out of the title. Have you heard about a guy named David Yerushalmi? Surpsingly, he is the one who is behind Anti-Shariah, not many people know about him, because he is really careful for not to appear on medias. As what I know what shariah means, is the way of muslim to live a life properly which follows what Quran and Sunnah or simply say it is a Islamic law. And the irony of it all is that he's a Hasidic Jew - he has his own 'Shariah' (called halakha) that he firmly believes in and practices. We even don't know if he's the one who is pulling the strings of all dirty work who are done by islamophobic idiots.

-> Go through this link to get an idea who is he

2nd day of fasting, it means 14 days left before my first exam. But, I still have 2 presentation next week. One test this week. One random report (oh, thanks random process, you are success to make my life random). But this is ramadhan! so everything is easy insyaAllah. Allah helps us. I believe in Allah. Yey! :)

p/s: There is famous quote, instead of you saying. Oh Allah, I have problems. You might change into. Oh problems, I have Allah. Allahuakbar! Jangan takut yaa! Big Allah is watching us. May Allah makes everything easy for us. Please save them. My beloved, Allah.

Ramadhannnnnnnnn!