Walk Your Talk

I don't know why, it seems so hard for some people to think before talk. Do you know if to maintain the good relationship among human being is hard? Do you know if this world is only a moment? Do you know if there is eternity life after this? The hereafter. So, beware people!

Lately, many cases around me and alhamdulillah I can take the message behind those cases, and of course I learnt a lot! It hurts, but again like what yasmin mogahed said Life would be a lot easier if you stopped expecting it to be easy.

Fainnamaal 'usri yusro wa innamaal 'usri yusro! :)

p/s : 2 days to go for internship. Semangat! Semangat!

Internship

7 days left, yes my internship is gonna start by next week insyaAllah. Do you know what I feel right now? I feel everything. I feel every feeling that ever exist in this world. Happy, excited, afraid, worried, sad and many mores. It mixed up nicely on me right now. My friends in uniten is starting their first day of the semester. I kinda feel miss  uniten, miss the COE and all the stuffs there. 

I fill my days before my internship start by reading all the stuff that might related to what I might do later on. I still come to my dad's office to help thing that I can help. Tomorrow, I'm going to the company that I will do my internship there, insyaAllah, I just wanna see how is the atmosphere there. So. at least my nervous can be less, by doing that. Oh ya, my company's name is PT IndosatM2, it is under PT Indosat Tbk of course, it is concentrated in multimedia and internet. Things that I'm quite interested on, Alhamdulillah. Eventho some of my friends said that internship is nothing to be afraid, it is nothing when you meet at the end of, you will realized it. But that is a big NO for me, there is thing in nothing. Never take it for granted I will gain knowledge as much as I can. Allah is here, and I always sure that He always make everything is going easy. Fi amanillah! =)

Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Bublé

I'm not surprised, not everything lastsI've broken my heart so many times, I stopped keeping trackTalk myself in, I talk myself outI get all worked up, then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to lose itI came up with a million excusesI thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn outYou'll make me work, so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you, kid, that I give so much more than I getI just haven't met you yet
I might have to wait, I'll never give upI guess it's half timing, and the other half's luckWherever you are, whenever it's rightYou'll come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazingAnd, baby, your love is gonna change meAnd now I can see every possibility
And somehow I know that it'll all turn outYou'll make me work, so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I getI just haven't met you yet
They say all's fairIn love and warBut I won't need to fight itWe'll get it right and we'll be united
And I know that we can be so amazingAnd being in your life is gonna change meAnd now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it'll all turn outAnd I'll work to work it outPromise you, kid, I'll give more than I getThan I get, than I get, than I get
Oh, you know it'll all turn outAnd you'll make me work so we can work to work it outAnd I promise you kid to give so much more than I getYeah, I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yetOh, promise you, kidTo give so much more than I get
I said love, love, love, loveLove, love, love, love(I just haven't met you yet)Love, love, love, loveLove, loveI just haven't met you yet

p/s : keep waiting! :)

Heart and Mirror

I love to read all the articles from Yasmin Mogahed, all her writings are simply inspiring. So, this one I quote from her (again) :

The heart is a mirror you see the world through its reflection. If the mirror is dirty, the world will appear dirty. If the mirror is warped, the world will appear similarly warped. The cleaner the mirror, the clearer the reflection. The cleaner the heart, the more clearly and accurately you will see this WORLD.

Great analogy isn't? That's why we always have to think positively (khusnudzon) in our entire life. Thinking negatively that only makes your life is sick. Your life will be miserable, trust me. This life is so short. We never know what happen in next 2 days or even in next 2 mins, so why just fill your heart by dirt? If you want to see this world as clear as you wish. 

There are many of 'heart diseases', one of it that I really hate is stingy (bakhil, kikir, pelit dan teman-teman). Even more if it is about knowledge, why you dont want to share your knowledge? People, don't know you if it is all from Allah, what happen with you by being so stingy with 'Yours'? By Allah's will, Allah can take it so easy from you. I even read an article, if you share your knowledge to others who wants and needs it, it will be keep longer in your mind. Because you keep repeating  it.

p/s : This life is real short. As what Imam Shafie said, this life is but a moment so make it a moment of obedience. I dont know how many of us will succeed in making life, but we (all of us) should try our best and may the mercy of Allah always here, accepting our struggle. Aamin Ya Rabb. Don't lose your hope of Allah.

Weird Me

I deleted two my recent posts. Well, I feel like too much pictures I had shared in this blog. Why not deleted the pictures only then, bil? Yes, and too much weird and non-sense posts.
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Today I went to Universitas Muhammadiyah Malang (UMM) and Universitas Brawijaya (UB), I was doing what they called as 'wisata kampus'. My cousins' daughters who are studying in both universities was telling me that I am not normal, kinda weird, because I asked them to go their campus which the semester hasn't started yet. We were walking around visiting the canteen, masjid, library and most of the places are closed. Yes, because they will start the new sem by next week or next two weeks haha. I was really wanted to ask about master program in UB, but the office was closed because today is friday, and they have a bit longer of lunch time. And then we went to my cousin's shop, we were just chilling there, watching movie and talk. The last but not least place is my aunty's home, my aunty invited us for iftar again, eventhough only few did the fasting but still others who weren't fasting also came (including me).

Us - In front of my cousin's shop

My dad and my sister will going back to Bali tomorrow, my mom and I will follow them on Monday insyaAllah, my mom still has things to settle here, so I just accompany her. Today my feeling was mixed up, don't ask me the reason why. I wish I know also. One of my close friend told me, there are only 3 types of feeling ; happy, sad and angry. Don't try to elaborate them. Or else you will wind up yourself, do I wind up my self right now? As what Rumi wished, "I want a heart which is split, part by part, by the pain of separation from God, so that I might explain my longings and desires to it."

Or maybe I feel too much, I feel things that I am not supposed to feel.

Kangen

Mungkin terdengar aneh ya, baru seminggu lebih di Indo, tapi udah kangen uniten. Kangen dengan belajarnya, nganggurnya, sibuknya, jalan sorenya, dll. Kangen sm temen satu flat. Kangen banget. Paling kerasa waktu bulan puasa kemarin. Bangun sahur, buka puasa, ngaji, tarawih hampir selalu kita lakuin sama-sama. Pusing sama menu buka puasa? Pusing sama-sama. 

Dan baru bakal ketemu mereka tahun depan setelah magangku selesai untuk semester depan. Ah, seandainya doraemon itu nyata. Seandainya pintu ajaib itu nyata. Serius deh, aku ga pernah sekangen ini sama temen. Semoga Allah menjaga mereka. Aaamin

Ngomong tentang seandainya, banyak banget rencana hidupku yang keluar jauh dari apa yang aku rancang, cita-citain. Entah itu terkait kuliah, keluarga, jodoh (lho? yang ini belum kebukti keluar haha) dll. Untuk jodoh, temen-temen satu flatku tau banget lah apa yang aku idam-idamkan haha. Satu hint ya : Germany. Tapi, terkadang aku jadi takut untuk sekedar bermimpi. Tapi bukankah segala sesuatu itu berawal dari mimpi? (ini kok out of topic banget yak, gpp lah ya. :p)

p/s: Post ini totally random abis. Ga penting bin ga jelas. Tapi, apa sih mimpi-mimpimu itu bil?