Marriage, bismillah..

"God turns you from one feeling to another and teaches you by means of opposites, so that you will have two wings to fly - not one." - Rumi

Here is our wedding website, please make du'a for us :)

http://www.mywedding.com/bilaiwanmenikah/index.html

Engineer, huh?

4 years of tears. 4 years of laughs. 4 years of ups and downs. Finally, it comes to the end. I made it, ALHAMDULILLAH!

I dedicate my degree to :

Abah who always encourage me to reach my potential. Your support and dua are answered. Abah, I know this is not enough to make you proud as having daughter like me. This is just beginning. I love you Abah, I do.

Ummi, your support and dua also counted. You used to say, "Bila, may Allah blessed your ilm'. I envy you to have chance for going to university, not like me and your sister. Please never take it as granted, the opportunity that you have." Ummi, thanks for teaching me the value of life.

My beloved grandma (ibu), I don't know what to say. But everytime I am around you, you always tell other people that I am your granddaughter that going to university. Your eyes can't lie if this is  something for you. Ibu, you don't have any idea how much I love you. 

This is it............

:)

I wanna quote something from Prof. Zaini's class (read: It is Optoelectroniscs and Fibre Optic class):

"People, being success is such a thing. But being success and humble is another great thing. You want others respect you, thats it the way. You don't be an engineer to ask people do this and that, walk with proud. More knowledge you have, the more you should lower yourself towards the GROUND." Thanks Prof!

Alhamdulillah :)

Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan, Malaysia!

Though going home is definitely a time when everyone always feel exited [ read : will be leaving this country SOON :( ]. But this is not what I feel right now. I kinda feel sad.

My first few semesters in Uniten, I did compare every single thing in Malaysia to Indonesia. The foods, the clothes, the people, the cultures and etc. And I made my own conclusion if my country is better in certain things. But there are certain aspects that Malaysia is way much better than Indonesia. Hmm...

4 years in Malaysia is not just a numbers. I feel comfort to stay here regardless the facilities that Uniten has. ;p

Today is the independence day of my second home. 

Well, I just wanna say, 'Selamat hari kemerdekaan my second home, Malaysia. You are a good country indeed, and you will always be insya Allah.' 

Please teach your neighbor country-Indonesia to be as good as you in developing the country. Guide him. I feel appreciate if you do. :)

Hidup

Hidup itu fleksibel. Mau dibuat mudah, bisa. Dibuat susah, juga bisa.

Tujuan hidup itu jelas. Aturan hidup pun juga jelas. Aku tidak bisa bayangkan, seandainya aturan Allah  dan tuntunan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W itu tidak eksis. Mau jadi apa kita? Berantakan, hancur, compang-camping. 

Saat ini aku berada dalam keadaan yang susah dalam hidup, itu bukan yang dijanjikan Allah. Tapi aku sendiri yang mem-begitu-kan keadaan. Thesisku hancur, revisi pun sangat lambat. Satu minggu libur seharusnya bisa aku manfaatkan untuk membetulkan semuanya. Bahkan menyiapkan slide untuk presentasi minggu depan. Tapi sekarang? Berantakan. Aku tau kenapa hidup susah, karena aku yang membuatny susah.

Entah apa yang aku pikirkan belakangan. Ini bukan keadaan seorang Nabila yang biasanya. Nabila yang kuat. Nabila yang selalu menjadikan sabar sebagai sahabat terbaiknya. Sabar sudah pergi, tapi aku rindu. Sangat rindu. 

Apalagi jika mengingat bulan Ramadhan, pilu rasanya hati ini. Ramadhan lepas begitu saja. 

Aku ingin bertemu sabar dan syukur. Dalam kadar waktu segera. Aku mohon.

Akhir-akhir ini pun, begitu mendapat masalah sedikit saja. Wuih, hati ini rasanya langsung panas hingga ke ubun-ubun. AHH. Kumohon kembalikan pribadiku yg dulu, walaupun tidak bagus tapi setidaknya tak seburuk keadaanku sekarang. T_T 

Innallaha ma'ana..