2012

My first post in this year, I don't know why I am so lazy to write recently. Anyway, I don't like to wish a happy new year since our prophet (peace be upon him) never us to do so even his companions. I just dont like new year, it means my age is increasing and we are near of our death. But one thing from this year is, I will graduate, another 2 semesters left insyaAllah. AAAAAMINN!

I spend most of my time with family, yes family. I just came from Batu-East Java, my grandma's and my aunties' home are there. I was spending my 10 days just chilling with family, catching up what is left from them. But my luck wasn't with me, the OpenOffice in my (yasir's) laptop couldn't work, sooo I can't do my training report during my stay. Because of it, I have to go my cousin's home to edit and send my writing for 99HijabStories - A book project from an Indonesian author Muhammad Assad, the dateline was 31 December 2011. His book Notes From Qatar is inspiring, I don't buy the book, I just read his blog because most of his writing in that book is taken from his blog. No, I didn't wish much of my writing will be one of stories that he choose for his book, I just wanna do something during my free time. 

And recently too, the fitnaa that is pointing to me and my family has been spreading nicely. I am trying for not doing bad things to others, I always trying to keep my habluminannas remain good, I do always do. But, I don't know how to stay with this. You know people out there, it's me Nabila that always and always protect myself since I baligh until the last breath of mine, only Allah knows me best. Dont't you know when my imaan is low, how hard I protect myself and asked Allah to stay with me? But those people just so easy to talk. It really hurts me, Allah. It hurts. But in times like this, I just keep my anger and keep silent, while I keep reciting du'a.

Inna maal usri yusro fa inna maal usri yusro.

At most writings that I have, I write rubbish in here. Lump it then.

p/s: The bad news is, I am so lazy to write my training report, lucky me the company haven't asked of it yet. Oh come on, nabila!!